If you knew yourself for even one moment
If you could just glimpse your most beautiful face,
Maybe you wouldn't slumber so deeply in that house of clay
Why not move into your house of joy
...and shine into every crevice!
For you are the secret Treasure-bearer,
...and always have been.
Didnt' you know?
From The Illuminated Rumi Calendar 2006. Oh, so beautiful.
Today is a day of transformation!
Today is a day of rain, flowers blooming and trees flowering
Today...a sparrow winked at me!
Today Spring is here and May flowers are drinking-in the rain
Today is a day I inspired....a friend told me so
Today...."I am inspired!"
Today is a day of stop signs and green lights, robins and red breasts...
...chicken breasts and salad greens
Today is a day for cheering...
... and creating
Today is a day well lived, and seen!
These were all ordinary elements of my day that were raised to a playful, poetic level by embracing: "paying attention" and "a new way of thinking"... then writing about it. The cadence of this poem was inspired by spoken word artist, Lizzie Wann's "Declaration"--a cut from her CD: A Wing & a Prayer.
Now, viewed in this way...the day is even more special. We can tranform every day to a day of splendor, reverence and illumination no matter what's going on by simply being willing to think about it differently...then we see it differently.
"Layla"...my first SoulCollage card...is becoming more and more real to me
every day, like a companion...it's an amazing experience! We are tapped into
some awesome energy through this process! I must share this vision that came
to me last week..while having an MRI of all things! Here's what happened:
I had to lay very still for the MRI, and as I relaxed my mind and body it was
just a few minutes before the vision presented itself like a motion picture
right before my eyes...
I saw myself at a wide sandy beach at the ocean. I was breathing-in the vastness,
and the energy of the Universe, and I was in a very grateful state of mind and being.
I glanced upward... and Layla gradually began
to emerge out of the water! Her stately, yet approachable demeanor brought
tears to my eyes as the purple ribbons still managed to blow gracefully in
the breeze as she walked out of the water. I was so glad to see her that a
tear trickled down my face...during the MRI. Then I looked up and gradually
and lovingly all the personified voices of mySelf that have come alive since
I made Layla just a few wks ago began to emerge from the ocean and greet me
with loving gratitude as if I'd just freed them from slavery; like they were
just so glad to be acknowledged and heard! I could feel their love...like
they'd been waiting to share this love and wisdom for years, but couldn't
because they were kept at bay. My heart was beaming radiant love.
Wow, wow, wow! This memory has taken up residence in my heart and
has been a companion ever since it happened. It will be with me for a
long time. I have a feeling that this vision will continue to cevelop. It
has unlocked a treasure-trove of mystery, revelation, and offered a
sacred invitation to me...and with gratitude, I accept.
"Layla" can be viewed at the "My SoulCollage Card Gallery" link on
When I come home from work Ike will sit and meow, over and over and follow me around, continually meowing. I sometimes tune him out for 5 minutes to change clothes and take a breath, figuring he just wants to eat. What I've come to realize is that more than dinner...he wants
acknowledgment, love and affection... at that very moment! - and he will sit in front of me or follow me around bellowing away...almost in a crying way...until I acknowlege him and give him hands on affection. As soon as look into those sweet little kitty-eyes and I reach to stroke him, he rises up on his hind legs to meet me, and he leans into the affection...and purrrs away; and he keeps moving in for more... and his purrs become rather chortle-like. He's obviously in heaven!
He teaches me so much about life (as does my other kitty, Suki, but she's another story!). First of all, Ike doesn't give up until he's acknowledged and he doesn't get mad, although he does become quite insistant, he just keeps radiating love...and he keeps meowing for affection until he gets it. So...now when I come in the door, within 1-2 minutes I "love him up" (all he needs is a few seconds to calm down) then he follows me into the bedroom to keep me company while I change clothes...while still chattering away in his kitty-kat-ease.
I think the inner-parts of myself are meowing in their own way too... wanting that acknowledgment... to be heard, listened to and UNDERSTOOD...and to love me even though I might not recognize it as love...(and like Ike, for me to give them attention too). Could be that once I've listened long enough, and deep enough their role in my life will be over and they'll become my mentor...(rather than my tor-mentor)...and we'll ride off into the sunset. Wouldn't that be wonderful? That might or might not be possible, but I do know that listening to and dialoguing with the deeper parts of myself through SoulCollage is a liberating experience that creates a deeper self-love, acceptance and revelation.
As I write this I just now realized that there's a part of me that's NOT like Ike, at times. There's a part of me that sometimes...when I don't feel heard, rather than "meow louder or longer" I give up...I close down, feathers fall, I curl up and lick my wounds. I now know that the part of me that is the "retreater" wants me to acknowledge her, and give her a voice. She too wants to be honored, seen and heard. Wow! --- It'll beinteresting to hear what she has to tell me -- this very issue has caused me to shrink away from some parts of my life...but not anymore! I am in the process of letting all that go and stepping up...and out! As Diana Ross sings... "I'm Comin' Out!"
I will make at least one SoulCollage card to honor this part of me that knows I am in my Right Place, and that honors synchronicity. And...I will put the geko picture in my office. I'll leave the "I love my job" in tact so I can remember his wise declaration, and attitude. Mr. Geko wasn't lamenting that he was not longer in his natural habitat nor complaining that he had been plunged headlong into media-mania, and celebrity-hood...nope...he simplly declared "I love my job". How adaptable is he? That's a quality that's good to have. What a lesson he's taught me.
Being aware of the life lessons that surrond us, can reap abundant, joyous rewards!
Each day I become more and more amazed and grateful for the SoulCollage process, my journey through it, as well as the expansion of my heart, mind, soul...and creativity. I happily surrender to the insights revealed because I know they are from the deepest part of me...my soul. Every few days or so I thumb through the images I've collected, or new ones, to see which one will pick me! Who would've thought that inner-exploration, discovery and re-integration with mySelf and Soul would intensify my passtion for artistry, inner-listening, and the great respect I have for the mirror of my soul...which is of course reflected in every SoulCollage card I create.
Now, Audacity, the Modern Day Muse--is very special to me. She's not only an energy & quality within me--albeit sometimes dormant--but we "go back" about several months. I first met the Muse Audacity through Jill Badonksy and her book, The Nine Modern Day Muses (see links). Jill's Muse, Audacity, governs "courage & unihibited uniqueness" and her domain is "teaching self-confidence, and freedom to be one's self...being true to oneself". I was intuitively attracted to Audacity when we got to choose a Muse to present at Jill's Muse Group Faciliator's training last October. I think Audacity and I chose each other! At any rate, Audacity has taught me so much. Even now, through SoulCollage she's reminding me she's still with me...and inviting me to borrow from her: boldness, self-confidence, and committment to being myself..whenever I might fall short of my own audacity to do so. Isn't she awesome!
Here is my Card "Audacity"